Sunday, 5 July 2015

3 days in to Boost and a weekend update.

It has been three days since I've started the boost diet.  For those of you who don't know what that is my only source of food is Boost Diabetic. I'm allowed to drink 5 bottles of boost each and every day.  Oddly enough it hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be.  The biggest challenge has been making it through all five.  I've found by the 5th on at the end of the day I just want to skip it.

The trick I'm finding is not to cheat.  It hasn't been easy and I haven't been perfect either.  I have cheated a couple of times; I licked a Pringle chip and oh my gawd was it freaking good.  I've also had a couple of pieces of lamb that was had for dinner this evening.  I'm interested to see how it all plays out when I get on the scale on Monday. 

This weekend alex and I were able to make it down to Pelican Rapids to visit Sam, Terri, and their family.  Visiting these people does wonders for my relationship with Alex, and it does world of good for me.

Wednesday, 1 July 2015

Its a whole new world!

The subject should be sung like it was a lyric from Aladdin.  I don't know if it should be sung so cheerfully but overall it seems true.  Since my last post on June 2nd everything has changed and tomorrow it will begin to change even more.  There are a lot of different ways I could post this and I really don't know how to do it.  Some I'm just going to throw it all out there and move on.  I think I want to share it more as a personal record of everything that has happened.

  • There was a massive fight between tamile and naviara, a lot of things were said and not said.  At the end of the fight tamile informed me that she was with drawn her submission to me.  There were a lot of other things said that night, none that I will share or repeat and some that I wish I could forget.  After that things seemed to return to some type of new normal.
  • A few days  later something happened with naviara, out of respect for her I won't go in to details.  I will say it was not the first time it had happened, in the end for the health those involved it had to be the last time it happened with us.  I choose to the end my 5 year relationship with naviara.  
  • And we have started to foster a dog on top of both of those.
So basically everything I've been working on for the last five years feels like it is gone. I have some hope that tamile will agree to submission again, but I honestly have no clue if she will. Apparently she plans to continue to bottom with me but who knows if that will happen.  Publicly she plans to be submissive but I have no clue how that will play out either.

Anyways that was my last month, I've made it pretty clear that I intend to continue in the lifestyle.  I don't know how it will play out or what it will look like, honestly I wish I did it would make the world a lot easier.  Who the hell wants an easy life anyways?  A part from that things are pretty solid between tamile and I.

Before I end this post let me comment on breaking up.  It sucks, but I believe it is the right thing sand for the best, I have no doubt about that.  Even with that being said it doesn't make it easy.  I've never been through a break up with someone who I had been with for so long.  So many of our things and belongings are intermingled and will need to be sorted out.  Not to mention all the emotions that go along with it as we sort things out.  It will be a timely process, one that will likely be made worse by what I have coming in the next couple of weeks, the boost diet.

Anyways it is nearly midnight and I need to think about sleep.

Tuesday, 2 June 2015

Post Doctors Appointment By-Pass Update

So I've had my doctors appointment and I also now have a date for surgery, July 23rd. Right smack in the middle of the summer.  All in all I don't overly mind the date.  It does certainly throw a wrench in to a few of our summer plans.  But almost anything we do over the summer throws a wrench in to one summer plan or another.

One thing that was really interesting about the appointment is that the doctor never really asked which surgery I wanted.  Which had been a topic of discussion between myself and tamile for several months.  He just looked over my file, and started talking about the gastric by-pass

So here is the basic run down of things at this point as I understand them.

  • July 2nd: I stopping eating real food.  For the next 3 weeks I will be drinking 5 bottles of Boost Diabetic in order to shrink my liver so that the surgery can be performed safely.
    • I've been told that during this time I will likely be fairly Hangry ( A cross between hunger and angry)
  • July 23rd I have to be at the hospital for 6:30am.  For those of you who didn't know such a time existed it is in the AM.  Apparently normally you are in the hospital overnight
  • Afterwards it is all about learning to eat again.  The first week I will be limited to liquid foods, which I will basically spend the whole day sipping at.  
  • Then once I can stomach that it is time for foods that have gone through a bullet blender
  • Then soft foods that haven't been blended and so.  
I've been told I could be off work anywhere from 1 to 2 months. I'm excited by this opportunity and honestly a little scared by it. I've been fat as long as I can remember and this strikes me as the best way to make a life style change that will last.  Right now the plan is to take a post a picture from Canada day, another 1 the day before surgery and regular photo updates after that.

Saturday, 30 May 2015

Sad party

A house full of people here for a party.  One that we used to.hold every couple of  months.  Tonight will likely be the last one.  Everyone is having a great time, expect the people who are hosting it.

Two of the hosts have gone to bed before 12 for reasons that are not mine to share.  The only reason I am still awake at this point us that strange people are in my home.

I honestly don't know if I want to post this or not. 

Thursday, 28 May 2015

Post By-Pass Follow Up

Sorry to keep my readers in suspense, assuming anyone is really reading this I honestly don't know.  If you are take a moment to comment on a post and let me know how you're doing.  While I don't mind the idea of doing this as a solo exercise in self discouvery it is still nice to know I'm not discouvering on my own.  Anyways back to the point of this post an update about my second follow up appointment.

It went awesome!  Shortly after I arrived I was ushered into a meeting with the dietitian.  Who tried to go over my records on My Fitness Pal.  I guess the site was down for some maintenance or something because she was having a hell of a time accessing anything on her computer.  Thankfully I had kept fairly good paper records as well.  So she was able to go through it and make a few suggestions where I needed to make further change or continue to make changes in my eating habits. Over all she was happy with what she had seen.  I asked fairly early on in the meeting what the process was at this point if I would find anything out today or if I would have to wait to receive a letter or something.  Sadly the dietitian was really noncommittal about the whole thing.

After I was done with her it was back out to the waiting room to see the nurse.  Thankfully the nurse was basically waiting for me to be done with the dietitian and so more or less I went from one office right in to the other one.  Unlike the dietitian the nurse was super forth coming about everything.  She took one look at my papers and read through the notes on my file and said I would be going forward.  The rest of my time with her was spent talking about how things would happen now.

The main difference I have seen so far is how fast everything is happening.  I had that meeting with the nurse on the 13th of May I have the first meeting with the doctors on the 29th of May.  So everything is starting to move super fast.  Of course it also seems like it was a blur because I've been insanely busy, and very excited.

Anyways their is your update for now, as always more later.